Pedro Almodovar has given an interview to the newspaper ‘El País’ in which he has confessed how hard his childhood was for him in the town of Calzada de Calatrava (Ciudad Real) due to the discrimination he suffered because of his sexual orientation. In addition, the filmmaker has confessed that his future would have been very different if he had not gone to live in Madrid.
“When I say I’m not the son my mother expected and I’m sorry I’ve been a disappointment, I’m not really talking about my mother, I’m talking about the town, the way the town looks at you when you’re a gay kid. You’re not yet You know what you are, but you understand very well what they are telling you. It is very hard to live rejection. It leaves a brutal mark on you. For me to stay in the town was to die in every way“, the director of ‘Madres Paralelas’ began by narrating.

Almodóvar acknowledges that it was his education with his Salesian and Franciscan parents that made him move away from the faith: “I wanted to be a believer, I tried hard to believe in God and mercy, but it didn’t work. Actually, the priests made me an atheist. It is a revenge against my school and against the abuses that were fought in it. If there are not millions of complaints in Spain, it is because we are very modest and we are very ashamed to admit it“, continues to open on the Pedro channel.

Pedro assures that it was the capital that opened his eyes and presented him with the model of life that he knew would make him happy: “At the age of 17 I told my parents that I was going to Madrid. It was the only big argument we had. My father told me that he would send me to the Civil Guard because he was a minor. I told him to do it if he wanted, but that I was going to leave. They must have seen such determination that they freaked out“He ended up saying about what was the beginning of his happiness.

During this interview, the most international Spanish filmmaker also confesses what his greatest fear is: “I feel terrified of death, which is something that I have not yet assimilated or understood. And that is a big problem because time passes, but I I have not matured much regarding the question of the passage of time. I still feel like a child and I don’t say it as something positive”, he acknowledges, defining himself as “immature” for not having been able to locate himself with respect to absences and old age.
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